via lucia - pretend

i want to always be the one who walks out
because you don't deserve to watch me cry.
i want to always be the one who tells you you're not worth it,
because i'm worth it; i'm fucking worth it.

and i don't ever want to feel this feeling.
i never want to cry these tears.
i wish i'd never have to feel this pain
or know the truth of all those years.