via lucia

now they were back where they started. she thought she'd had the confidence, or maybe the fear, to keep her mouth shut, but she didn't. maybe she never would. she didn't know why he so blatantly lied to her. didn't he know that she knew all his secrets? and didn't he know that talking would be the only way to solve the problem?

she felt so vulnerable and so trapped in this lonely place. sometimes she felt that she'd always feel lonely with him. other times, lying in bed with him, she wondered who he was. how did they ever get this far without really knowing each other? she felt as if he knew her inside and out, and yet she oftentimes hid her inner feelings from him as if maintaining her power that way. in their dream world, they knew everything about each other and they could be open about all of it. in reality, they were fighting to hold onto their secrets and suffering because of it.

she didn't want to keep trying, because he never did. she found herself drawn to him, especially when he was turning away from her. maybe this was her curse and she would forever be running after him like an old dog.